Sunday, September 30, 2007
saLam.

It's 8 in the morning. On a sunday. And i Just cannot sleep..

So here I am writing. To kill my utter boredom..

hOw's life? Ouh.. Apparently no comments. Coz im totally vacuumed with my life. And how did I handle it? By secretly crying and just sit and stay in my room like one depressed child. Ouh and how did I go through my days?

By smiling and laughing at work. Though nothing seems to be fine or funny. And by punching and kicking and stamping on my colleague's foot. Very bad it seems. But somehow, I felt good after I did that. Guess i have to stop lah eh.. Kesian ko jub. Dah lah tak sangker leh end up at the same working place, ni plak kener abuse ngan aku. ishk3.

Hahaha.

K stop it. Not that funny..

Mmm.. Life seems boring. I feel lah.. I mean luckily im having attachment right now.. sO it kinda saved me from a 100 percent boredom. At least there were things to do at work. Cool stuff. Guess being an assistant chemist is not that bad afterall. Hehehe. I loike it so much dat I hope i can get a job somewhere like that.

Oh ya.. thinking about getting a job.. Mmm. Where shall I go after I get my diploma??

Errrrrr... I am soooo not sure right now. Its like. Im hanging? God.. My parents have always been the one who will guide me all the way. But hey im 20 for goodness sake. Til when do I have to wait for my paps and mom to decide where i will end up to?

My future is mine to handle. God creates the path. I follow His lead. And insya-Allah to somewhere very good for myself. and my life...

K im starting to yawn..

Im not tired. Just.. Bored u know. Like u'll yawn if u have nothing else to do.. Human mechanism. Dont ask me how it works. If i explain, u wont be able to understand. Lol. THats why i cant be a darn good teacher. For goodness sake. My bros even dont want me to explain a simple math sum. Coz they say i would just make things more complicated. Haiz....

I guess thats why my life seems to be more complex.. Like there are so many turns and all of my expressways and highways or watever u call them, they are just blocked with complications.

Maybe thats why i cant think straight... As in my mind has been clouded by so many complex factors that even I myself cant hear what my mind says. Does this sound complicated?

Hahaha.. Kk.

This time. Fasting is alot easier than the past. And im glad i have completed a total of 12 days! Erm im a gurl. Dats why.

Hehehhehehe. So happy for myself. Good achievement.........! K lame lah eh. Org poser dah 18 days aku ketinggalan. Felt sad when I couldnt celeb for the first 4 days.. But hey. At least i dont faint or watever like i used to lah eh.. Ni lah kuaser Allah.. He's good.

K.. what should i do now?

Today will be a bz day for me. (Ahem im trying to psycho myself) So i would better get some rest. (Again trying to convince myself) Or else. Oh for goodness sake.

This is utterly lame.
7:59 AM