Sunday, August 26, 2007
Salammmmmz.

:)

Exams. Checked, done and over with.

Love? Gone, cancelled from the list and dumped.

Life? Getting more than interesting every day...


Imagine.

You are beginning to pick up the puzzles of your life. And try to put them together. Without any guide. Any help. And you just try and think which puzzle suits with which, until you get the right picture.

That is what im doing now. With my life.

I cry. Evry night. My room rains with my tears.. Why?
Bcoz I regret. Regretted wasting all my time. Being with sumone, whom eventually just can appreciate me for who i am. For being there. For being myself.

Each time i meet a guy. The same old trauma. Phobia. Will come back and haunt me. Making me seem helpless. Weak.

And evrytime when I fight back, the pain just becomes worst. Terrible.

Im not sure til when can I actually get over with the past. That somehow, still haunts me.

Bad love. Bad experience. ANd that was my First.

My second. Went pretty bad as well. So sad. Very sad ending.

And I still feel like. If i have a gun wit me rite now. And if I only hav one bullet. I will just shoot right at his heart. But. God doesnt approve of Killers.

So.. If i have that one bullet. I will keep. For my own defense.

Mesti jekkkkk lelaki yg aku dpt buat prangai. Kalo tk drg buat, aku yg prangai. See. I believe that God has His own way of making His game.

And His game. Is for evryone's good.

Thats why....

Mmmm. Nice theory. Understandable. For me though. doNT Utterly care abt what ppl think lah. Lol.

k. eNUf of guys.

Back to my LIFE.

GOt results. Where I'll be posted to for my intership programme. At Wyeth Nutritionals!!

omG. i dREAmt of working for Wyeth and lo n behold, alhamdulillah I got it!!!

So HAPPy. buT erm the place. Woah. Tuas.. From one end to the other. Donno lah eh. Never have woken up so early. Besides during Ramadhan lah. Tu mestilah. Sahor wat.......

Lol cant imagine if i have to sleep by 10pm evry day for 5 months. and wake up at 5am evryday..
wOw.. If i have huge black circles... THen u'll know the cause lah eh. Lol.

Plus... Im aiming to lose weight. I really hope its possible.

Lol. Gained 10 kg. And lost 5 kg adi. Losing 5 more... coming soon lah.. iNsya Allah.
pLUS... Its gonna be Ramadhan soon. Making it easier than ever. I just love God more than ever. hahahhaha.

My dad came home. To celeb my bro's bdae .. in advance. A few hours spend with dad.. I missed him like hell.. I want him to be happy though.. He deserves it. After what he has done. To bring all of us. Here. Rite now. And with Allah's rahmat.. Alhamdulillah..

Welll.. I guess. For evryone. There is always a .. U know. the difficult parts of life....

oh weLL..

I guess..

I m getting sleepy..
LOve my dad. Miss him dearly. And IM closer to Mom.. Shes my best fwen now.. Though she still nags. bUt i realised. From what i went thru... It is just a way. That makes me love her more than ever. :)
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