Tuesday, August 21, 2007
sAlam n greetings.
:)
Been long.
Ive been bz.. as usual. Haiz.. DONt even hav a decent time to actually compose and reflect on oneself...
That bad. That i really appreciate the short time that I had wit my girlfrenz at firewerks this year.. Oh man. i caNt WAit for these exams to be over.. Really need to rest my mind before attachment begins.. So.. Crowded. Is that the best word to describe my state of mind rite now??
Relationship with guys? Juz got worst lah eh. I just feel that being single is the best and final resort. D was as usual, so egoistic and cant even be tegor-ed if he was in the wrong. I totally give up in dreaming that we could at least be back for the 4th time. Its so Not right. Hes just making it worst,. for me and for himself..
I wonder.
S was almost the same. Hes too young in fact. tO be wit me. Not sure lah eh.
M.. M is fine.. But donno lah eh.
See.. Might as well i sit by myself, at the beach, enjoying the sight.. than i think of all these nonsensical stuff. 20 is still young. There are millions billions of opportunities out there waiting. I just have to grasp them bit by bit. and Build up my long time dreamm.. It would be so much easier if these problems werent there in the first place...
Its like. Even if I have lost evrything that were once mine, it doesnt mean that i HAVe to just give up, and live together with the darkness and hauntings of my past..
Life... there are thousands of paths to choose from. Why would God give us brains? For us to think. Making mistakes is a norm. Not making mistake, that is terribly wrong.
Gues having a late night shower is not a bad idea after all. Though bathing evry late night, is nott good for health. Can cause rheumatism or sumtink,. Cant quite remember.. Forget about it lah.
Last paper man... Thurs seems so far away. Im not confident.. that i can enter university. Haiz.. guess i have to look out for other alternatives. My gpa just suckz to the core. Why the hell did they set up so high a GPA to gain entry in universities???
SImple. Coz they want the best. To be in the best school, and get the best reputation. Duhhhh, so darn obvious.
im Sick. again. Runny nose. cough. Ithcy throat. fever. theSE are signs and symptoms of mild flu. or maybe due to stress.. could be due to impact of drastic change of weather.. ok stop it.
I juz wanna live normally. No guys to get into my nerves. No girls that love bitching about one another. For goodness sake. Im missing my girlfrenz.
When can i get out of this cage thats full with papers, books blah blah blah......
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