Monday, April 09, 2007
I checked when I last posted my blog. N oops. Its 20 sumtink of march. HaHAHA.. cool.

K. Today is my bro's bdae. He's 15. a Grown boy indeed. But he's still smaller-built than me, his voice hasnt break dat deep yet, n he's darker. Wow. All the negative points. Wakakakak.

But look at his muscles. Honestly, for a skinny guy like him, that muscles seem a little... sCary. HhAHAHA. Im bigger than him (in terms of size here!) n i oNly have muScles enuF to keeP me fit BUt DONt dream dat I can actually CaN qUALify intO somE freaKIng muscULar womEn. Hhahaha.

But he's grown TALLER! nOT so FaiR huh?

Now i feel like a short stump in between TWO very tall trees........

How i missed the days WheRE I CAn actually look at my bRos and say proudLy, LOOk! Im taller.

NoW theY look At me and say, wow U've gRown shoRT. Guyz can be sooo naive. Hhahahahah. No offense eh?

oK OK back to how i spent my hols............

itS a dread actually. No extra income, no nuthing. That doesnt bother me much. jUz dat. I stay at home for too long. it is toooo drEady. If thEre's such a word.

Like today... I baked a cake. Which took abt 3 hrs in total. N my legs got sore. Den i Cleared the refrigerator which is so full with junkies n chocs (yummy!) n all dat sweets stuff. U know. ahahhaha... Candies are the nice.

N then i did the household chores. N lo n behold! I folded a gunung of clothes til I swear that i am not gonna see any gunung or hills or mountains of unfolded clothes eva! If i see them. Im gonna..... FOld them........


Hhaha. Not funny.

And most of the days. I watched this English drama or episodes called Prison Break. Oh mannnnn.... It is the coolest and interesting and full with suspense aite! Soooooo cute the hero. Hehehhehe. Michael Scofield. I cant imagine if there is a prisoner smart as hell as this character. N I cant believe this Alex Mahone cant take any prisoner smarter than him. Hhaha. This Mahone is juz jealous I guess. He feels challenged...

WHy on earth am I talking abt Prison Break?

I should be talking on how cute this WenwortH miLLer is. He's cute. With that constant frown of his. Cant believe dat guy is a genius in real life too. REad up dat he's from Princeton. Dats a university whr majority are straight A's, I guess. Do I qualify? OH man. In my dreams. I guess. HhHAHAHA..


Niwaez. Wat else....

Mmm... OH yar. Now cartoons seem so much outdated in my house. We watched dvds n vcds. alMost evryday. My mOm watches dat stupid n illogical Bawang Merah Bawang putih on TV. My bRos watch Prison Break on laPtops. AnyoNe wanna watCh locaL tv ProGrAMMe, go To my Mom's rOOm n uR eyeS will Be in Pain duE to the bad LIghting from The old TV... man....


kiNGs n qUeens of TV gonna have a whole new world record.

Me n him. We r fine. I guess. Honestly, I think n feel that both of us juz need some space to be alone. By ourselves. I mean. We go out, eat. N dont talk much. He's busy and getting busier with his personal life. N im juz... like dat. almost iNvisible in his life.

Its difficult to be wit sumone who actually, already has a future career that he has to focus on.

N im going easy. He's going difficult.

Its hard for him I guess, to juggle in between studies, soccer, families, friends and girlfriend.

So im not trying to be a heroine here, but sometimes i pity him, i juz shut myself out u know.

I mean, its the best for both of us. Less misunderstandings, less quarels n fights. Trust me, these are the stages that really freak the hell out of u. hahaha. I talk like one freaking experienced counsellor.

Oh well. Being in a relationship is nt the best thing in the world i guess. Especially when there is only 20% of chemistry in between the partners. N now.. I juz have to handle n juz flow wit how things go. Its not dat hard. Anger management is good. But can be a total heartache, heart-wrenching and heart-wrecked.

Woah....

How about single?

Time will tell my child. ( nOw waT? a Holy person?)

Katakan lah, "Cukup lah Allah bagiku, kepadaNya orang2 beriman bertawakkal."
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