Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Assalamualaikum..
How do I start?..
A feeling that is hard to conveyA moment that is difficult to spendA time that seems reachable but it has goneJust like that..The worldIs a place..Where all of us stayAnd live, struggling to survivePeople..They change,Unfortunately with time,Hardened by nature of the modern worldFamilies come closerLife becomes peacefulLove is pouredEndlessly like the vast blue oceanFriends.They come.And go..Changes in them, difficult to swallow.Teman..Dikau menghilangkan diri, dimakan waktuSetiap sikap dan sifat muTernyata bukan apa yang ku bisa terimaSuatu kenyataan yang sungguh pahitSakit semakin mencengkamAkibat mendiamkan diriKerna ingin menjaga persahabatan supaya kekalNamun apa jua punTanpa dikau sedariSikap mu sungguh menyayat jiwaMembunuh segala semangat di sanubariSuatu kenyataan Yang aku harus kuat menerimaSepenuh jiwaKerna akan datang suatu saat, di manaManusia kan berubah dek masa..Jangan kan diriku yang mati dek sikap muHati ku juga hancur dek kata-kata muPedih, bak dipanahKeperitan yang sungguh tidak bisa ku ungkapkan..TemanApa arti persahabatan yang sebenar?Apa kamu semua kan hilang atau pergiKerna seseorang dari kamu bukan apa2 Yang bisa disamakan oleh kamu?Apa berteman itu arti nya kesamaan?Apa bersahabat itu suatu janji yang hanya dipegang dari mulut?Manis perbualan. Manis perbuatan.Suatu umpan yang bisa dipengaruhi ramai. Dek senyumanmu, yang mungkin disebaliknya tersimpan seribu satu kemarahan.Ternyata aku bukan lah tipe manusiaYang bisa mengatasi masalah persahabatan sendirian..Mungkin aku terlalu lemah, untuk mengucapkan yang sebenarDan kerna itu, aku mudah terjatuh,Mengalami keperitan.Sometimes, we cant control things like this. People do change. And I have to keep reminding myself that. Some people change abruptly, the others change but we still cant see the changes.Its all up to individuals. For me, I try to keep my friends happy.. I treat them all
EQUALLY.
Except for, maybe my old friends who have been with me for the past how many years, then they are already part of me, they have come to my life. And they have somehow influence my life, And I am glad to have friends like them. Whoever you are, you guys should know this, I really treasure our friendship, and may it lasts foreva. Rock on guRLs! and GuyZ who are close to me..
For the rest.. Maybe I just knew you, or maybe we are building on friendship.
But, honestly, friendship is something that we can never try to trade for. It comes naturally, even to someone who does not want to make friends. It is something that Allah has sent to us, for our own good, actually. It is just
HOW, we make friends and mix around..
Maybe I just dont have anything in common among the gurls. MAybe because of that, I sometimes feel, alone or
INVISIBILE. I tried to blend it, but the differences are just too wide, that sometimes I lost control of my own emotions. I tried to talk and share, but I guess, my world and theirs are totally apart. There is no use of sharing if no one actually listens.
Perhaps there will come a day, where everything will just settle and be like the way it used to be. Hope so, and I pray for that day to come..
Amin.
Peace.
6:09 PM
