Thursday, November 23, 2006
Wakaka.. hEllo.

Im at click.com.. Sum internet cafe.. since my laptop was taken away for repair and maintenance thingy.. since my internet went dead. I feel so sick. n bored. Well.. at least today can chill a bit.

For the past few days.. my life has been so focused on BPhar n Pmic. Now, gotta focus on PrnMgt n PIA lak.. Oh life is so cool yar. When there are exams, there tend to be stress.. when there's stress.. there are... homosapienz?? animals, can they come down with stress? i wonder leiz.

Niwaez.. Mmm.. Relationship? Family? Watever shit dat u've got in this life.?

It is bad. Bad, bad and getting worst. Wat can i do? juz keep quiet, and ikhlas menerima segaler cobaan. wat can i do yo?

Im still under them. I cant do anitink. besides studying hard, and at the same time trying to be the craziest n funkiest sis/fren ard.. n being a good daughter, wat else can i do rite?

life.. its kinda.. old.. im getting older and older by the minute. still he cant accept the fact that i've grown. oh my god. how long do i have to stay as his little princess? dat is the problem when u tend to be the only daughter among many sons.

niwaez.. i dont mind being pampered, n owaez the topic of all gossips n talks among families n relatives n whoever.. but too much of it.. that can be freaking irritating.. its getting into my nerves. i dont wanna be the topic of people's sayings... !! dont they have anitink beta to talk about? like jaga tepi kain sendiri ah.

argh. old people. i dont wish to end up like them when I get old lata. its scary.. children will be traumatised!

oh well. dat's it. you cant turn back the time u know. u gotta move on, and live as the time clicks on..

dat's life. never turn back. dont live with the past. LEARN from the PAST. THE past is already gone..

k.. now. da future. this moment?

i donno.. kinda missing sumone actually. but hey.. Suatu CInta itu bukan harus dimiliki bukan??

Love. its complicated. it always has been when Im around. Dat's wat i realised.

Love. its sumtink dat u can never hope for. Too much hope can kill.

U wanna hope? HOpe for sometink more.. stable?

Aku jatuh cinta.
Namun, aku yang sering terkandas dan patah hati.
Aku yang sering bermandi dengan airmata yang deras mengalir.
Aku yang sering terpukul dan tersiksa.
Apa ia akan berakhir?
Apa bisa ia berakhir?

Jera. Hav u eva heard of dat song? it's sung by Agnes Monica. Nice song. Sad.. So like me..

Jera means SERIK.

Aku sudah JERA dengan percintaan.
Apa gunanya bercinta jika cinta itu tidak beralas, dan tidak bisa dipertahankan?

Apa gunanya rindu, jika rindu itu bertukar menjadi siksaan?

Emang gue pikirin apa.?

Haiz. Oops not supposed to sigh! very bad..

Mmm..

wORK woRk.. gotta work so dat i can slowly forget bout him. though i know it will take a long time.. he.. he's gone..

i donno..
now its my life. he has his own sumwhere there.. antara benua.. i juz have to pray for his happiness.. n safety.. n rezeki..

aku hanya insan biasa. tidak bisa berbuat apa.. hanya bisa berdoa.. supaya aku diberikan keikhlasan.. dan kekuatan untuk menerima segala ini.. dengan hati yang terbuka..

Amin..

k lah.. gotta chao..

Dead? Not yet!
8:16 PM