Thursday, October 26, 2006
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MUSLIMS OUT THERE!!

TO all my fwenz, families etc etc. Maaf Zahir Batin. Maafkan lah jika tersalah laku or terkasar bahasa, sorry kalo ader yang tersinggung. aku tau MulOt aku kekadang laser maut :) Hehehe..

Wahhhh. Last updated was on 23rd of August. Today is wat? 26TH octOber?

Hahaha..

oK.. herE Goes..

I went sailing lah. For a month plus. M.I.A. Sorry coz i DIdnt get to inform u guys earlier on. It was planned but it came at the wrong time. I went off at the last minute yo. My paps was the one who pulled me onboard the ship, I was really willing to go actually. To get some peaceful moments, off S'pore fer a while.

Managed to get peace, but not totally. Paps becoming like Mom. I donno. I dont agree them getting back together. It wont do ani good. But who givs a damn abt wat I feel. I dont wanna be egoistic like Them. So i dont care, n I dont wanna know.. Hahah.

ok. i SOund BAd. Its not that i dont cArE. itS juz thAt iM too TIreD to think abt all TheSe.

ONboard the ship, I learnT lotsA things.

Bout Paps. Bout Mom. Bout Myself. N bout Life n Love.

All of the above are so freaking related, DUHHH. Hey, at least.. I get to understand the true meaning of Love..

Love is something Ikhlas. Sincerity..

Sometimes, you fall in love with someone, but somehow you just cant be with them. Impossible, for my case. I mean, ya..

Haha. Why talk bout Love yo? nutiNk else To tAlk bout iZZiT??

mMM..

sCHooL has beGun. Got abt 4 or 5 subj thIs sem..

So gOtta really foCus. Go tO heLL with LovEy shiTTy. Still YOUNg.. HahHahH..

What I've Learnt though is, Im beginning to understand my real self better, n deeper. The meaning of Nada Aprilia, as a person, a character, a live action princess.. Hahaha. Not exactly THAT kind of a princess yo. I do live in a castle, juz that my castle isnt big n beautiful. Its juz nice n warm n comfortable, especially my ROOM. hehehehe.. Ok..

Paps call me His princess. HE calls me His princess. Din calls me His princess. even My irRitating brOs name me thAt. My MOm, surprisingly.

But theY dont TreaT me Like One. n I Dont thINk i DeserVe to bE one. HahA. beiNG thE only gUrL IN the faMily is kiNdA bad acTually.. BorinG. no ONe to taLk to.. n I tenD to gEt comFy with Guyz N guRLs aLIke. bUt somehOw, thAT is a pROblem to Mom n PaPs.

They dont like the way I carry myself around. They dont like my social life. N they just disapprove my relationship with Din. Waddahell was that about?

Im going to Be 20 soon.. Im gonna grow white hair in the nxt 10 years or so. Time passes by so fast, you dont even know wat time izzit now... All you know, u gonna be dead soon.

What is that all about?

N to top it upppp.. I fell in love wit someone else. Oh my.. That's bad. N Din too fell in love with some other gurl. I dont blame us yo. Still young, so many choice out there. Im not that perfect. I Dont meet up to dat criteria yet. N im not sure whether I'll be darn perfect. No one IS perfect niwaez.

Get wat I mean when I say, LOVING SOMEONE IS SOO GODDAMN HARD.

ok..

Ikhlas aku menerima
Segala apa yang dilimpahkan padaku
Sesungguhnya
Cinta sejatiMu yang akan
Memberi kekuatan pada batin ku

Cinta jiwa raga ku
Semuanya telah ditentukan oleh Mu
Yang hanya bisa aku lakukan
Menunggu dengan penuh keimanan
Akan seorang putera yang bisa
membawa ku pergi dari durjana ini..

Kesabaran itu membawa ganjaran yang terhebat dan terindah.

Patience is ViRtue.

I dont need to be with anione at this moment. Coz I understand why. Love is not something that we wait or look out for. It is something that we Feel, and we juz know it when it is the RIGHT one.

For now, I dont wanna crack my head to find n discover who is the right one for me. Coz, ive other better things to do.

N, I'll wait when the time comes. True Love will find its way yo. So chill, sit back n relax.

Peace. Outz.

Assalamualaikum.....
12:29 PM