Friday, October 27, 2006
Hehe. Hi...
Im kinda bored. Lata Din's gonna leave me alone at tamp's library.. Sad rite. Hahaha.. Coz he's supposed to solat Jumaat. Wakaka...
I donno wat im feeling lah. Shitty, lonely.. Troublesome rite.. Hahaha.
Nutink beta to do today. But there's one thing stupid to be done. Ive to get back to school, juz to get my new matric card. Bodoh kan. Dahlah org sumer tak skul nari. even my mom cuti......
Dat's why i dont wanna be at home. Haha. No lessons today. ALL Tuts n Lab.. First week of school is soooo heavenly. But hey, Its the 2nd year oredi.. so cannot play2. gotta buck up my GPA. dumbass.
Oh ya.. wan n baby are going on one trip. im not sure whether it's confirmed yet, but i guess they r going. suddenly, i feel like im gonna miss my bros hell a lot. i mean, i wasnt in s'pore for a month plus, n wen i got home, my relationship wit my bros are closer than ever. they hav grown, a lot taller, their voices are beginning to break. teenagers. Haha. as if im not one. but yar.. Ive seen them grow, n i donno why im feeling sad. n happy at the same time. mayb coz ive babysit, took care of them til now. its like. im a mother, bringing up two boys who r so freaking mischievous. I will pray for our happiness, as long as can be. Insya Allah, amin.
oh well. watched a movie today. DOA- Dead or Alive. Cool movie. cool moves yo. didnt realise that girls can actually be action heroes. Haha. I wanna watch Covenant. Coollll show........
Haha.. Oh well. Mmm.
I miss him. He smsed me yesterday. I was touched, but i told myself, it's not gonna last. N so i relaxed. But, i could sense that me n Din, r actually becoming two separate persons. I DONNo. Im not sure. N i dont understand why we r becoming like this. i tried to, u know, be close n manja with him like i used to in the past. but i juz couldnt bring myself to it. it's like, i sensed, he's different. i donno..
mayb its my pre-mood u know. its coming up. quite soon. so perhaps dat's why im soo freaking moody nowadayz.
oh well. a relationship is not meant to last, if u dont have ur heart in it. the same thing goes to putting an effort in doing something. i want this relationship to last, but if both cannot do it togeda, it juz wont work. i mean, it's getting worst.
oh shit. i donno what im typing. it's bad.. really. im juz typing wat's in my mind rite now. like im writing in my own diary..
no privacy. haha. love sux. ok.. it juz sux.
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