Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Im practically crushing information and throw them inside my head, hoping my trash can wont be full............

oh man.. exams cuming. im feeling the stress now.. hope evrytink is alright..

i mean.. i calculated the marks dat i should get in order to obtain juz a PASS, n guess wat, ITS HORRIBLE! for goodness sake, i hve to have a computerised memory to score such terbang marks!

mmm.. totally out of the mind. niwaez, who says i cant achieve dat marks? i mean, haha.. if im in good luck.. but nutink comes without hard work man.. it means dat i hav to increase my revision by 5 times or i'll be dead.. this semester has been kinda bad actually.. i miss my fwenz.. i miss laughing.. im tired of being sick.. im sick of sitting ard n sleeping coz of my stupid pills..

guess wat.. i wanna stop taking those freaking pills.. they arent good man.. they juz lure me deeper into lala land......

haha.... doctors can be such pains in the neck man.. they get paranoid over small matters....

haha..

forget bout dat.. i donno where to turn to.. i mean, in school, there are like competitions.. i donno over wat actually. i mean, we hav to help one another, not help oneself.. dats ego man..

niwaez, what can i do? i mean, dis is the real world. even school sux when it cums to exams. ppl start to study alone, helping themselves, ignoring those who really need help. like me! haha.. never mind... ive been able to survive so far.. hope Allah gives me strength to juz hang on til last day of examsssssssss...

oh yar.. things at home.. getting better. coz i mostly shut myself up. i mean, locked in da room.. its kinda quiet. my bros are really growing up, i can see dat. n they always, and never have failed to make me laugh my head off, rolling n rolling on the floor, clutching my oh-ever aching stomach. haha. they are darn humorous, love them for dat.. kinda always looking forward, waiting for them to be home from school.. i mean, life sux now dat im feeling kinda shitty and alone... n my bros are the ones dat can make me forget dat, n heal my bleeding heart..

well.. most people juz cant see our best sides. humans can only judge by the bad side, they will always and forever remember that.. why cant they be more realistic and wake up from their oh-so-not-cool thinking?

niwaez, i love my family hell alot, n honestly i would die for them.. they are juz my heartbeat yoz..

n for Him. He is the Greatest..

Not din.. for you guyz information yar.. He is God, Allah.. U know? I know. haha..

Din.. He is such a cutey WHEN he doesnt get in my arse n make me scream! hey dont get it wrong, dat basically mean, being soo irritating dat i cant even bear to talk or even look at him!

hahahhaa... guyz.. can be sooo cute when they are super irritating. like wan, my bro. i mean Nuzwan... actually... Hazwan can oso be super irritating ;-) hahahahah.. never failing to make me grin n laugh like one freaking hyena gone loose!

ohhhhh... i juz love them........ muackz to my beloved darling bros n sish..

k gotta go lah. chaoz!

a'kum

heheh...
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