Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Hey.. It's still morning here. Juz check da clock. It shows 11 plus am. Hahaha. Im at Din's house.Im using his computer while waiting for him. We wanna go swimming today. If im not too tired, then we sit in n watch movie. Yesterday he came to my house n watched The Descent. Fucking scary movie. Like suddenly i needed Kyn at dat time.Coz she knows when n how to divert my attention so it wouldnt be so freaking scary. HAhaha. Kekek. I screamt at many suspend intervals lah sia. It kinda shocked Din. HAhaha.

Niwaez, Im kinda bored. Takkan nak masok chat pagi2 ni kan. Ner der org. Sumer ngah dibuai mimpi gaknye.

Okay.. I need to get sometink out from my mind.

Have u ever felt so shitty, when u actually did sometink good, but u got shit in return? well. I always get it. Donno why. It hurts even more when u actually do these things for da sake of ur loved ones, but u get only coldness n them being rude to u.

I guess being strong is not enuf. I have to be freaking patient, n move wit the flow. Im sick n tired of going against the current. Im getting to old, weary... Though im actually only 19 but I feel like im 91. Hahaha..

Oh forget bout it. I dont wanna be sad all the way. I mean, i deserve to be happy, n to stay dat way, i juz have to be patient juz a little more, before i reach my goal. Once i reached dat, Im Gonna be myself, n make my own decision. No more begging n crying n ranting like one troublesome lonesome kid.

School's gonna start. I cant fucking wait, to get freaking bz n dump my brains on sometink more meaningful, then straying around, wandering off, like one freaking mentally ill person.

Ok here goes. My life. My vulgarity. My bingitness. Plus belo-ness. HAHAHhha.

Fine. PERIOD.
11:16 AM