Sunday, March 26, 2006
Oh my god.. It's long since i've updated my blog. Honestly, i forgot about it. hahah.

I've a job. at last.. So ppl can stop calling me pampered child. I mean.. I hav to look for my own money sooner or later rite.. It's kind of tiring listening to all the makciks n pakciks n some teenagers telling me to look for a werk, n stop depending on my parents alone for my allowance..

Having a job is not simple. An experience dat is.. Cool if u know how to appreciate ur werk.. If u werk, for the sake of getting a bigger allowance, then u r da dumbest person alive. Dont make getting a bigger allowance as a basic reason to y u wanna werk..

I werk coz i want to show my parents dat hey, im big enuf to stand on my own feet. I want to hav the experience in werking life.. how my parents must hav felt all these years.. now i totally understand why they are always in bad mood.. they muz be exhausted man, werking like dat.. i werk for 8 hrs.. itz kinda tiring honestly..

still, my parents keep on saying dat we can still support u.. especially my paps. very annoying. i mean, im 19 for goodness sake. he's still regarding me as his little girl. it gets so sickening sometimes, i dont feel like talking to him..........

n my mom, she's always treating me like one brainless child, so i cant blame her. im too used to her character...

but my dad......... oh my god. i seriously dont expect him to hav dat kind of thinking. he is supposed to be so much smarter than all of us here...... wait til i get my degree lah.. :) hahaha

the only way to tell ur parents that u are growing n ur mind is also developing is to show them that u can be independent. that u r indeed a lady.. if u r a gurl.. n dat u r a man, if u r a boy.... duhhhhhhhh......... that is the best way.

i realised dat if i keep on behaving like one brainless kid, wit nutink to do, being pampered to the corest of the core, n going ard like one wacko, always wanting things to be my way.... my parents would be un-confident in me.

so de only way is to...... work n study real hard.

if u know how to divide ur time btwn werk and play, u'll go real far. if u dont change ur character from now... u'll end up like those 40plus people out there who cant be changed oredi. n then u'll be labeled as one of the most sickening human being on earth... how cool is dat??

no.. i dont want to be narrow-minded. being a broad-minded person is better. positive thinking kills negative feeling. im growing.. i mean im getting older. so i should start acting like a lady.. no longer a kid.. still, we humans cant deny that we do have 3 different characters...

1. We act like a child sometimes
2. We act like a teenager sometimes
3. We act like a matured person sometimes...

So it's kinda cool.. juz imagine dat u dont hav these 3 main characters. u'll be the most boring person ever.......

eewwww.. i cant imagine myself being like dat.. juz dat i wanna change da way i live life.. now im more cool abt life.. i mean it wont be called life without difficulties n watever shit that comes to life....

they are the spices of life.. no spices no taste...

so... im already 19.. so i should act like one lah..

now.. dat i hav someone special in my life oredi.. it's like a package oredi.. juz to show my parents dat im old oredi.. n they should also realise dat they are getting old oso...

for dat special someone... well i juz pray dat evrytink goes well.. n dat our relationship can go on longer.. coz.. he's different. dat's all i can say.. he gives me the confidence to move on.. n my parents kind of agreed dat we continue wit this relationship.. juz dat they keep on reminding us dat we hav to focus on our studies first... dat i know.. i even told him dat.. i dont wanna commit 100% to this relationship coz i want to focus on my studies. its kinda scary if i commit to him..coz i used to give my heart to my ex.. but i got it back, all rotten like one bad egg... n he understood..

well.. guyz.. u know. we gurlz always hav this bad negative thinking.. we juz cant believe to ur sweet words.. coz dat's natural for u guyz to be like dat.. sometimes, gurls are also like dat.. see. part n parcel of life.. juz dat, keep the trust alrite. wit trust in a relationship, love will grow. without trust, u will tend to quarel like stupid dogs n cats.

so.... i trust him. i trust myself. i know my limits.. as long as both of us know where we stand.. then we can go far...


oh alrite.. im gonna take my shower now..

my mom n i will be jogging after maghrib. hahahha. cool.. im gonna jog wit my mom.. how cute.
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