Friday, February 03, 2006
my post tak masok2 seh. selenger bacin nye blogger. eh dah lamer tak pakai phrase nih..
it's FRIDAY. THE DAY. WHERE I THOUGHT I CAN JUZ SHUT MYSELF IN MY ROOM, N SLEEP LIKE A PIG.. but i cant today. coz my paps comes home. oh man......
ive been sleeping late the last few days. n i feel totally shacked man....... shack or shag ah? agaknye shag ah......
oh man im trying very hard to keep my eyes open. n ive been trying to call my brothers for the past hour n still those donkeys never pick up.. ni yang bat darah up giler nih...............
argh!
ok chill.
something happened on wednesday.... donno lah.. but i realised dat im beginning to be seriously mepek.. i mean.. argh never mind forget bout it.
seriously speaking, i donno wat to type lah.....
numb, cold, exhausted, felt like i juz swam across the pacific ocean. hahahah. exaggerate lah sia. kekek. oh man...... never hav i felt so tired before....
am i hungry? i dont think so. but i feel like i wanna much on something. wat is it?
am i missing somebody? waddafuck.
i dont wanna commit. but i still commit. i dont wanna give my heart. but i did. n now, i donno wat to feel coz.. oh forget bout it. i juz love him. ok. fulstop
sometimes i feel like, he doesnt deserve me. i mean.. he's too kind, n nice.. im like shit. watever dat i've gone through all these years has made me like a rotten egg. more matured yes i am, but i still act like a freaking lost child. i mean. dat's how i am.
secrets kept deep inside thy heart..
til wen will dat shut u from the outside world..
til wen..
why are u ranting?
when there's a dim light right ahead..
somewhere there..
in your path..
why do u fear the past?
when u already hav nothing to do wit it animore..
why do u fear the past?
when u can make it fear you?
5:52 PM
