Saturday, December 31, 2005
i cant understand why.. my heart goes bump bump when i get to know someone who is so
caring..

get wat i mean..

i lack of people who show that they care for me in my own house.

it's freaking scary in my own house.

i fear myself..

haha..

hey....

there's nothink wrong in falling in love u know..
juz dat it takes time to really know the person n see whether he suits u or not..

well for me.. now i dont want to listen to my feelings or my heart when it comes to lovey
dovey someone.. coz i dont wanna be hurt again..

hehehehe...


well forget bout it..

guyz who come to my life.. welcome.. i'll juz treat u as frenz no more than that coz
from my experience, i dont work well wen it comes to love..


learn from lyana.

treat them as fwenz. if they treat u more, make sure dat they are suitable. dont waste ur
life on a guy.. one is not enuf for u to judge..

coz out there, somewhere.. someone is waiting for me..

i wonder who..

but for rite now.. my heart is shut as it is..

so hurt it was..

now it wont be hurt animore.

life is something wonderful actually. if u see it on the bright side...

wen it's dark, the key is yours.. to make it darker or light it.. so dat it'll be cheerful
once more..

for me.. for years i've been crying buckets.. now it's all a waste. i still lose the ones
dat i love..

n now.. im alone once more. coz they juz dont understand me..

but i will understand them.. coz it tears my heart to see tears in their eyes..

i would dare sacrifice myself for the sake of many people's happiness..

mak kau.. emo lah sia.. hahaha. tak main ah emo emo ni..

mcm ner jek minah jiwang jek.

i love it when i laugh or smile.. coz it lessens the burden in my heart.. n i juz want to
stay like dat.. coz it makes my heart goes bum bum bum.. hehe









oh forget bout getting guys.. let them get u. shut thy heart.. understand n know them.

n u know which to choose. coz. u r still too young to think bout love.

it's not simple, love that is...

complicated.. delicate.. fragile.. vulnerable.. once true love is lost, never another one
would be found...

he wasnt my true love. he was a fake. i gave my heart yes to him.. that was my dreadful
mistake. n now i've learnt.. guyz dat come your way thru life.... they are juz the
temporary lights..

they make u smile only for a short time.

eventually they'll disappear into the darkness again..

n now..

for now..

i dont need a guy'z love. i need my family's love. my friends. my sisters n brothers.

my mom..

my dad..

so far away i've been drifting...

n now im sinking deeper into the darkness.. when it engulfs me.. disallowing me to breathe.

all i need is HIM. He is the Almighty. He knows wat is best for me.. n im so in love wit
HIM....




actually.. ive nutink beta to do lah.. so i came up wit a topic n i juz typed watever dat
comes to my mind.

haha.. boring lah.. tunggu web kua pon lembab.. haiyah..

mcm nak berak lak.. ni lah guava drink nye pasal. hahah.. abeh salah kan guava eh...

haiz........

now wat..

balek umah. blaja. dah lambat lah siotz.. aku tak bat homework.. hospital nye pasal.

macet nye pasal lah. asyik penat mcm ner nye old lady lah....


aiyohhhhhhhh... hahaha

n im surrounded by pure indonesians whose bahasa indonesia is so freaking good.. sometimes
even i dont understand wat they talking u know...

haha.. almaklum lah... gue bukan anak indon tulen deh.. anak rojak iyalah.. duh..

hehehe...

i mish my fwenz..... later donno whether have time to kluaring or not.. ;(

boooooohhhhhhhhooooooooooooooo........ sakit perot ah. hahahaha.. serious nak berak ke pe
sakz.. hahahahahaha. rumah lak jauh nih. terpelosok kat corner maner ntah..

jakarta jakarta.. mcm singapore gak.. cumer times 10 kali ah.. besa dier fuyoh. sesat
menangis lah kau berhari2 bermalam2.

alamak.. blogger stuck lak.. hahahah.. kalo dah bosan mcm ni lah. ader jek nak complaint.

okay lah.. ive been here for 3 hrs now.. n now... my paps aru masok. hahahahaha.. kesian
dier tunggu kat luar 3 jam.. tu lah akibatnye kalo ader anak satu2 nye gurl.. jhahahahhaa

jadik bodyguard aku seumor hidup dier agaknye. wakkakakaka.. oh my dad.. haiz..

kay lah.

dah lah.
panjang sangat aku nye citer pon. sangking boring nye. argh!! cant wait to get back to
school!1!!!!!

geram!

aku nak cubit2 pipi sumer sisters aku lah! wakakakakla



oh yar! HAPPY NEW YEAR SKALI AGIK!!!
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