Sunday, October 16, 2005
Im BORED to hell.. BORED out of ma skull.. N guess wat.. Im not at home. Hahaha.
Im in Whitesands National Library.. nuthing beta to do.. so here i am.. stuck coz it's raining so damn badly.. heavily.. n it's cold.. ohhhh... berkah ramadhan. haha..
Me n Lyana were planning to like look for a new job today.. coz i didnt want to try out that stupid promoting products.. haha.. but we are stuck. she at home. me here. becoz of the rain..
look on the bright side. it's raining. it's ramadhan. n im not at HOME! haha.. most important thing is i can avoid quarelling wit mom in the month of ramadhan n dat im sick n tired of crying.
haha. my life is like full wit tears, n they come non-stop, n still i can laugh n smile n make noise as though nuthing is actually bothering me, and dat i can juz hide my sorrows away juz like dat n dat i keep evrytink bottled up dat i feel it's gonna explode any seconds now, n here i am, desperate to do sumtink so dat i can forget someone, n move on wit life, n juz hate dat someone coz he cheated ma feelings, n juz kill him, n juz bomb him so far away so dat i can live, n stay single for the rest of ma life... n im out of breath.. phewwwwwwwwww...
wat's up wit me? im sick i guess. haha. sick of life. tired of it. why is this happening to me? simple. coz im juz a special person in the eyes of ALLAH. He definitely knows what is best for me. n like my paps say, FOLLOW THE FLOW. papa, im following the flow, but why is it as if im going AGAINST the flow?? am i going in the rite direction? should i go left rite or juz straight? wat if i stop in the middle? will evrytink stop too??
ok.. Ly juz msg me.. n she juz got out of the house n man it's still raining heavy.. haha.. n my fingers are oredi numb.. wat to do.. n guess wat. NaLia wears PINK today.. coz i was tinking like, hey why not i try sumtink weird today.. n i decided to wear pink. haha.. of all colours.. it's pink. YAY!! Nusrah would be glad if she sees me wear pink.. haha.. oh.. i juz miss my fwenz so freaking much..
N wani was like, when can i go out wit ya.. sumtimes i pity her.. i mean. when we can go out, she cant make it. n when we cant, she can. it's owaez the opposite. is it coz we r in poly, n she's in jc?? we understand dat she's in jc n realise how her schedule would be.. but wat bout her.. man.. she muz be feeling real lonely now.. i juz wish dat im wit her rite now..
like i said. ppl may see that life is unfair. but actually it's fair enough for us to not realise dat it's fair. God gives us life. He gives us the opportunity to live it, FAIRLY.. it's juz us dat feels dat life is indeed unfair. n i realised how stupid i am. so dumb a homosapien could be.
oKaiz.. gotta go.. update further later. Ly has msg me. n i gotta go.. dont like to keep ppl waiting. one dat i've learnt from my beloved sis, Kyn. haha. miss u guyz..
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