Friday, October 14, 2005
For once.. I realised sumtink so true.

i sent him this..

Love is not sumtink bout relationship. neither is it bout desire nor revenge. Love is sumtink that comes purely from thy heart. There is no real reason why we love sumone. some finds love so quickly, n they settle down. others take a long time to build Love n devour it..

Then, now n forever.. Love is undefined. Why love sumone who doesnt love u back? that is the strangest thing that i've ever heard or thought of..

why hate when u can love a person n make him or her love u in return? why hate when u can build love in between rite??

n he sent me this..

in Life, Love is Never planned nor does it happen for a reason. But when the LOve is REAL, it becomes ur PLAN for Life and ur Reason for LIving..

N i replied. True. Now i realised why i survived all this while. why i am still alive even though i wanted so badly to die n juz go..

See.. hmmm...

First. Never trust guyz swit talks. Not all. Most though. If they do something that u dont like, juz back off slowly.

Second, trust ur instincts. Follow ur heart. Think wit ur mind. N not wit ur emotions.

Third, Love someone truly wit ur heart n not bcoz u r drived wit emotion, desire or watever that can destroy the LovE itself.

for me. i survived coz i love my family damn too much, dat i cant juz let go of myself, n it is one reason why i stayed alive. if they cant appreciate me for who i am n wat i have done for them all these while, others will. if others too cant appreciate or accept me like my aunties n uncles, then Allah swt will. He rules afterall. they dont rule. they only know how to comment n hurt me wit their foul mouth..

sorry but cant help it. if my aunties n uncles cant accept the bloody fact that i am in fact smarter than their darling children, then they hav to learn to accept it. if they want to pull me down by telling stories bout me to others, they r welcomed to. but there is one thing they hav to keep in mind.

For years i've been keeping my mouth shut, coz i respect u guyz as u guyz r my mother's family n u guyz r so much older than i am. N for years, u've been insulting MY FAMILY, especially my paps, n me coz im juz too rude. but hey.. guess wat?? I AM STILL ALIVE!!

sheesh.. u guyz wanna pull me down but failed so totally. go on wit ur stories behind my back, im fine wit it. watever it is, i leave it to the hands of God. He knows wat's best for me. U guyz donno my problems, donno bout my family life.. u guyz juz know nothing bout me n my family. n i juz hav to say, i dont like ur noses sticking around.. jager lah tepi kain sendiri yekkkkk...

alhamdulillah..

I know i've been a bitch all these while. u guyz juz cant stop talking bout me. but hey.. I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN BOUT IT. bulan puaser tak baik lia ko maki2.. fine. watever it is, if u guyz cant accept the fact that im growing n im changing, it's u guyz problem. not mine.

haha... to my beloved aunties n uncles.. slamat berpuaser. n to ma kuzzies. im still me.
chill..

rawk on guyz
3:35 PM