Friday, September 23, 2005
For days, I feel like Im floating aimlessly. Wit nothing beta to do. Lying ard like a fat pig, crying like no one's business, stoning like a depressed statue, staring emptily into space.

N today. I realised that. I am still Alive. For days, I've been walking ard like Im dead or sumtink, so oblivious to my surroundings. Juz caring bout my own business. My tears as my companion..

I called alvin poh. N he reminded me abt sumtink which I hav long lost hope on. I still hav exams that i hav yet to sit for, and here i am, standing, doing nothing but crying and ranting like one idiot, who has nuthing to do in life. haha. i realised how stupid i was, to waste such precious times, juz like that.

N u know wat. Im back!! even though not as fully back, but i realised that i hav to get up on my feet, and STUDY LIKE ONE IDIOT ONCE AGAIN, for my exams. which is like one week away.. n i havent finish studying. i still have loads of the notez. n i havent practice ani exam papers. ooooohhhh... i should not have followed my broken heart, and cry wit it.

wakkaa.. oh well.. at least by letting all out, i feel kinda light. as i know, an already broken heart, will remain forever shattered. so why rant over it? why waste tears for sumtink which i can never get for years??

haha.. oh well.

gotta study.

NaLia. Is Back. On her Feet. and now. I realised. I am STILL BREATHING.
1:25 PM