Wednesday, August 17, 2005
i have maths quiz later today.. n im still chilling... coz i cant stop myself man.. i guess i am too tired to continue my revision.. seriously.. mental block.. cant think straight.. i wonder why..
im waiting for my paps to come home... i miss him man.........
while waiting... im revising.. updating my blog.. chatting n thinking bout him at the same freaking time.. power.. multitasking is.. bad actually... coz my mind isnt focusing on all things at the same time....
im chilling yeah i am...
but my heart is shivering sia..
got such thing is it.. i guess so.. i donno lah.. there's this sort of chill feeling.. very cold inside me but im quite warm here... it's juz this weird feeling of i donno.. a mixture of different feelings, lumped together.. n the body juz donno how to react to it.. n.. im talking shit...
aitez... im sick, im stupid n im a fool.. when it comes to this thing called love.. u know what.. i juz wanna hate this thing coz it suckz to the core for me.. n it juz doesnt suit me. i juz dont suit to love anione in this freaking damn world.
i feel like giving up lah.. why go for sometink which doesnt have anitink that tells us there's sometink.. wat am i talking about? shit.. juz freak.. man... i hate him. i juz hate him.....
see! i cant even lie to myself lah. aiyoh. i hate myself. for loving him. n i hate myself. for juz... loving him. haha.. SHIT!
ok ok... i think it's best that i go on wit my revision.. before i juz die from hating myself too much.. must gain that self confidence back or else i'll die in tomorrow's quiz.......
Em evol tu.. em tnac hak evoling tu.. eva tu.. ilno tu..
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