Monday, August 22, 2005
Felt cold all over.. N i am still feeling cold.. My left cephalic is throbbing.. and my feet are cold like ice.. N im giddy.. feel faint.. like dying..
Im talking nonsense.. Maybe mom n paps n ma fwenz r rite.. i should rest my brain for a while..
my fits are back.. after 15 years.. wow.. such history.. dat's scary actually.. getting numerous fits for donno how long.. and for 3 days straight.. is a scary experience.. like i am about to die or sumtink... masya allah..
i donno why.. paps say i would get fits if i am under stress n not enuf sleep.. but who cares aniwae.. i mean.. wat is life without stress.. not enuf sleep is normal for teenagers like me aniwaez.. who would want to go to bed at 12am nowadays.. aiyoh.. parents juz dont understand...
hahah.. now im talking outta point.. actually he's rite..i shouldnt act macho or sumtink since i know i am weak n not that fit enuf to continue til 4 am almost evryday like sumkind of inhuman thingy.. wakakaka
mak ai.. i'm listening to nymphetamine.. it touches my very heart sia.. hahaha.. hehe.. giler.. hardcore agaknye..
okie.. i have to sleep actually.. no good for my health.. who cares.. ok fine.. maybe it's becoz of my stubborness that i fall sick.. hehehe
i miss ma paps..
i miss ma fwenz.. nus, faz, wani.. all out there who r as crazy as me...
man.. i miss thonning wit ma members.. n cuzzies.. aiyoh... shit.. im gonna get back when im finish wit these exams... so sickening..
n love.. why love? when u have God to love you.. n your parents.. ur brothers and sistaz.. why love? when you have failed again.. hahahaha...
forget bout your love.. coz.. it's the bez thing u can do.. leave it to HIM coz there'll be someone for you sumwhere in this world.. if not..i would actually prefer to stay single for life.. so much better.. so much cooler..
LOVING YOU DOESNT KILL ME.. BUT IT DOES KILL YOU.. NOW IT HAS KILLED ME.. wow..
Love is so much pain.. I should have known it.. after years of being in pain.. how can i still want to love.. when i have felt it wit my very own soul.. why am i so stupid to ever think that i can be loved by sumone.. when those ppl cant even love me.. n i dont deserve to love ppl...
haiz.. oritez.. gotta get ready for school
later i mean..
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