Wednesday, July 27, 2005
hehe... Im wearing black from top to bottom.. n i realised i've been wearing black the whole of last week n til today.. woah... my black's mood is back!! wakaka..
man... i wanna write sumtink lah..
Why..
Do I still keep thinking of him?
And why..
Does the past still haunts me..
This heart has been slashed..
Smashed and torn to pieces..
How painful it was..
Unbearable..
Tormented was my inner strength..
Struggling to breathe..
Creeping crawling..
Searching for the light..
When I was freed..
Out I flew from the cage of hell..
Breathing, taking in the fresh smell of air..
So long I've been surrounded..
By the smell of black roses of death..
So free I was..
Then I know..
How I couldnt trust these homosapienz..
I vowed I wont be hurt again..
Til he appeared in my life..
Once again the past haunts me..
Every second of my breath..
Is depicted with the pain, the sufferings...
Why..
I've never felt like this before..
A new feeling..
And I am afraid of it..
The fear that I feel..
Why fear when the past cant come back....
Why..
Coz I lost faith in Love..
The darkness that crept..
Into every corner of my life..
Can it ever leave me with some light?
For me to shine..
And find my way out..
Tears of blood..
Seeping from my eyes and heart..
Feel the unknown fear.. Love.. and hatred..
All at once..
How sickening.. freaking.. annoying can that be?
It is soooo damn difficult when u fall in love, but actually u dont wanna fall in love........... I juz cant do this!! i have to forget bout my feelings no matter wat.. coz i can no longer trust my own feelings.... never can i trust them... for this matter that is.... basically... i juz suck in love. haha!!
fine.. haha.. let's talk about sumtink else..
erm.. i met my dad.. he's thinner.. and he looks kinda old.. and weary.. and i miss him hell lotz.. i wanna cry.. shit! damn it.. im fasting.. giv me a min... need to get control of myself..
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