Sunday, July 24, 2005
can u juz believe it.. i burnt my bloody fatty oily calories for so many nights.. n i still didnt do well for my tests.. gosh.. it was like a massive slap on my face!! how can that be??

is this a test? a test... or maybe i juz didnt put in enough effort?? or is it because im too new for these subjects that im taking.. gosh bio is very tough... thank god my chemistry is still alive..

now im getting paranoid.. i mean i didnt revise that much this whole day only my maths.. n it was like shit.. i cant even get the right answers.. n that im not in the rite mood to mug.. n my exam is only about a month away!! ohhhhhh.. this sends an utter shiver down my spine.. n my heart has begun to tremble wit unknown fear.. im exaggerating.. it's only exam... n im getting paranoid over exams?? haha.. so not me..

but hey.. i was the one who wanted to go poly so i must do well.. i've promised that i will... n i shall keep my promise..

oh well... i didnt study yesterday because something came up.. tried to call my dad.. but there was nothing.. no answer.. no calls.. im getting worried.. i fear something happen to him.. nauzubillah... jauhkan lah.. i juz wish he would call me n tell me he's fine..

i cant sleep.. im not tired.. n i miss him.. i dont know why.. even though i have not thought about him so far, i juz missed him.. dat's weird.. haiz.. guyz juz wont understand.. even if they understand our feelings, their ego will keep them away from showing that they do understand.. haha...

oh well.. i better start my work.. before alvin poh comes after me n tell me that im not doing well.. i have no reason not to do well anyway.. i did study.. juz dat i wasnt focusing i guess.. i dont wanna let anione down.. not my parents.. not my brothers.. not alvin poh.. haha.. even though he seems fierce.. he's a nice guy.. very caring n very fatherly.. wakaka

oritez.. gotta chao!! peace!
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