Monday, July 18, 2005
HAhaha.. i LoVe my neW blogskin.. it is so meeeeeee.......
n thIs is tAnx to KyN!! MUackZ. Lup u gurL!!
i juz finished playing basketball wit my bros, n my hands r trembling, maybe coz... my heart is pumping blood to all parts of my body..n my lymphatic system making sure dat blood is circulated well... or is it juz dat i'm thinking of him??
now i have two blogs.. one is the fwenster one.. and the other is now......
the fear..
of being enclosed
by the red roses
of love..
is much worse then being endorsed
wit black roses
of death..
man i didnt realise that i wrote this.. so pain was the love that i once felt.. i failed.. not once but thrice.. all three were so damn close to me.. the two are still there.. and they will forever circle my life.. the last one.. he's dead.. that i wish..
For years i waited..
Hidden unnoticed..
Beneath the shadows of both hatred and love..
For years..
I ranted..
I screamt..
But no one was there..
To listen to me..
To pull me out
of the shadows....
So long..
so long...
I fear the presence..
Love cant be trusted nor feared..
i'm getting sick.. i love him i guess.. but this love is juz forbidden...
1:16 PM