Friday, July 29, 2005
oh man... i'm so scared now... for two days in a row already, i receive mysterious calls.. n im juz afraid it's HIM... god... what will happen to me if it was really HIM?? my past, my fear, my enemy..........
My heartbeat goes slow..
The thumping within my chest..
Hurts..
Sends chills down my spine..
My heart trembles..
My fear awakens..
As my past haunts me once more..
Will i be brave to face this reality..
If HE really comes back for me..
Why do i feel death is near..
My heart goes..
Thump thump thump
As HE approaches..
Hiding beneath the shadows I will..
But i wont be silent..
Slow n steady..
Creeping closer to HIM..
Each step..
My breath steadies..
I will kill HIM..
n watch HIM die n suffer..
Like wat HE did to me...
For one whole year...
Darkness and pure hatred reigned my life..
N for that HE'LL pay..
Years have taught me..
To be strong...
N hard n cold..
Like an iron steel...
Years of sufferings...
Years of pain..
What more do u want me to face??
I've handled alot..
Til my hands screamed..
N my body bled...
Still...
I am ALIVE........
what do i fear??
I dont fear u...
I hate u..
N for that i fear YOU'LL end...
begging for Life...
I fear only One
and that is GOD....
never YOU..
I am not yours.. n U r not mine... I belong to God.. Only...
3:02 PM